Monday, October 10, 2022

Just this day.

I'm back before the doctor's appointment that may give me some answers or at least set my fears to rest.

I think I am feeling better mentally which is a huge improvement.
I didn't realize just how much I battle anxiety until I went through this. A few years ago I had some pretty bad panic attacks. Oh my gosh, if you're ever had them, you know just what I'm talking about. I am so glad they seem to be gone.
But anxiety is hard to handle, and so is depression.

We have had a fairly full summer of scary and sad things happening in our family-but there have also been lovely things too. My faith has helped me. My husband has been my hero.
But I can tell you my head has not been in a good place. I'm not sure how my husband has been so helpful and encouraging. I have had to apologize to my family doctor, my mother, and others because I have felt like I'm on the edge. And I have certainly shown just how anxious I am.
I thought I skated through menopause (I'm almost 68, for heavens sake!) but it seems like I'm in a storm of a hormone rush or some odd thing.
So I feel like I need my blog friends-even though it is all on a screen, I love the friendship and I love to see what everyone is doing. If I comment on your blog, it is not just to get you to visit me, I just want to be friends. That's all! 

I think this is a hard time for us all. If we are not battling person health problems, we are in a world that seems like it's ready to burst. 

The tree colors are so beautiful here this year-they haven't been so pretty in many years. I helps me to fill my brain with their colors and watch the sky with its changing clouds.

 I sure appreciate you all who visit, and I would love new commentors if you feel so inclined.


Salty Pumpkin Studio said...

Time gaining the strength to manage anxiety, that surfaces in the aftermath of panic attacks, is without boundaries, limits, deadlines, destinations. It is all yours to journey where you are most comfortably in control. Along the way, you build bridges, signs, rest stops.
Prayer and faith!

Debbie Nolan said...

Ah sweet friend. You know my prayers are with you. Like you I know anxiety as well. So thankful for your friendship and all you share. We know that in the end all things work out for good to those who love the Lord. My mom used to say when things became overwhelming "This too shall pass". She was right and somehow remembering those words in the midst of a storm helps me. Your photos are so beautiful. Keep "looking up" friend. Sending you a Big Hug!

sirkkis said...

Dear Debra,
I feel sorry when read about your mental anxiety. It is understandable that we all sometimes suffer some although they can be different kind. I really hope you get back your happiness soon and you enjoy about your many talents you have, and kindly share them with us.
My English word are limited, so I cant say all what I'd like to say.
Thank you for sharing the very beautiful photos. The scenery there is really lovely.
My warm thought are with you,
Blessings xxx

DVArtist said...

I am sorry you are having such a hard time. We, as women go through more than men know or realize. Thank goodness your husband is so good. Sending much love and healing to you.

Hill Top Post said...

I always, without fail, double click on your garden pictures. I can tell your garden belongs to an artist. I love the reds in your fall pictures. Wow, you certainly live in a beautiful place. Our reds this year are mostly brown because of all the dry weather we have had this summer. I always enjoy our visits out by the opening in the hedge.

artbyjune said...

Debra, what a lovely selection of nature photos. These sure cheered me up this morning. Nature is a soothing constant in our rocky lives, I find. I sympathise with your anxiety attacks. These are not nice at all. I find breathing exercises and counting backwards helps a little. Of course... a steadfast helpful hubby will be so great for support! I hope these attacks will ease soon.

Barbara said...

I’m back too, Debra. I think we all have lots of company! Your photography lightens my spirits!

Becki said...

Debra, I have not been keeping up with blogging, or visiting my favorite bloggers this month. You are a joy to visit, and while the content of this post contains difficult things I am so glad you wrote it. Thank you for being vulnerable. I have had some stressful things this summer that I've not blogged about (for personal reasons) but like you I found some solace in just getting outside. My world was made a bit small this summer with recovering from two surgeries since spring time, but my garden and back yard have been a soothing balm in the midst of some crazy things I had to deal with. I'm so glad I discovered you, friend.