Where has my brain been? I have no idea.
I truly can't figure it out.
It is not good to be hyper-critical of yourself.
So, I needed to see flowers for my soul.
And to give myself a healing kind of gift.
Maybe You need it too.
It's been an awful 2 years, hasn't it?
I know I have become someone I don't even like sometimes.
I don't know how to communicate. I'm fearful too much.
I'm lonely.
Are you?
There is nothing in the world that makes sense.
I found something I wrote on this blog a while ago, and it helped me. I want to write it again here.
Dear God, when I am thinking straight
I come to know that I need You
more than I need
Me.
I ask You to help me put Me aside
And I thank You for hearing me.
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That's all. I'm too proud, too-oh, too many things I'd love to change about myself.
You can probably see those things better than I.
Well, I am working on it.
I want to be good, and I want to be Good for other people
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16 comments:
Good morning Debra, do not be so hard on yourself. It is good to reflect though, do better and then continue on.
Thank you for sharing your flowers, they are really beautiful-hoping to create lovely areas of flowers this year for the future here. hugs
Loneliness, I believe, can be an illness in need of healing. I think it is parallel to depression, but without the lack of the ability to care, to feel. Deliberately looking for flowers is a very good step. I also read what folks have to say on the web, read about loneliness, and. try to discover substitutes. Some folks like massage. Crowds can help as well, shopping for example.
There are, I believe, many people, who for them, the past 2 years is much like their regular life.
Perspective, engaging joy, music, art, Nature is important to our Self.
Hugs to both of you. I love you.
I love your gardens. Creating them has been lots of work, but it has been so worth it. Kathy made some good points, and we should definitely not be too hard on ourselves. You are so creative and talented, so keep on trucking my friend! And, never doubt that you have friends, even though we are not so close as the garden gate!
I'm very worried here about the World's - and Finland's future. Hazard is over the world. Finland has ran across the same as Ukraine now. My family had to leave their home and as refugees escape to other areas of Finland as 400 000 people did. Finland lost big area of its territory. I was a baby and cant remember anything about this, but the life of my family changed totally.
I hope you get through loneliness and get back your inspiration of making art, which is unique.
Thank you for sharing the lovely nature photos, dear Debra xx
I see a lot of colors and hope in your photos dear Debra. And I am so sorry that you feel lonely. Wish I could give you a hug and say everything will be ok. But this world will give us heartache, loneliness and so much more.
And still God is the same. He has controll. He is with us in the midst of the bad things. The Psalms in the Bible gives me great comfort. Maybe they will help you too??
Wish you brighter days and Gods blessings in your life. I will pray for you🙏❣️
Beautiful flowers Debra! It has been a tough couple of years, getting outside, seeing and hearing the birds definitely helps my mood.
Thanks so much for your comments on my blog, and prayers for my husband. His scan was clear thankfully, but he has medication and will get a follow up appointment.
Take care and don't be too hard on yourself,
Alison
The beauty of nature is always very healing, enjoy looking at the flowers. Have a great week, hugs, Valerie
I have two cats and my blog. Without them, the loneliness would overwhelm me. There have been days when I felt like I was in prison and there was no one to talk to, although, unlike prison, I had to fix my own meals. There are days I don't want to cook and there are days I don't want to get out of bed and shower, but I do it because if I didn't I would be giving up and giving in. That's when I realize I'm depressed.
I can feel your pain, Debra. I think your sharing these incredible photos of color and flowers is quite uplifting. Thanks for lifting me up today, dear.
Ah Debra I believe we all are lonely at times. I long for heaven and in that longing find myself thinking more and more about those who are already there waiting for me. In the meantime will continue to "look up" knowing a better day is coming. Beautiful prayer dear one. Hugs!
Those beautiful flowers should help restore your soul. I miss having flowers like that, so I try to find something else that has that effect on me. Today it is our donkeys. I saw a headline on my news read once that was supposed to tell why people abuse donkeys. I could not read it. How can anyone be cruel to a donkey. How can anyone be cruel to woman and children they don't even know! I like being isolated from it all living here on the mountain. Much love to you. And thank you for another look at your flowers.
xx, Carol
Thank you all, my dear, dear blog friends.
It is lovely to see all the flowers blooming.
For me, looking at animals always puts me in a better state of mind. I admit its been a very difficult and so so weird 2 years from 2020 to today. I've been doing so much thinking about myself too. As for making art, its been a case of plod plod plod. Why am I doing this I keep asking myself. The short answer is that it was my childhood dream and so I feel I owe it to that young me to do it. So I keep going. Glad to see your garden restores your spirit!! Thank you for being my friend on Blogger!!
I thank you for your friendship too! And I have been feeling that same sense of what am I doing??? But I feel that God told me to paint, and I don't know why, but I'm going to keep on.
Hugs to you, Debra. It is nearly a week since you wrote this post, so I'm hopeful that you're feeling some better. The pictures of flowers are just lovely. I am eagerly awaiting warmer weather and many flowering things. :)
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